Closer To Home (I'm Your Captain)

((THIS GREAT SONGS LASTING EFFECTS ON ME ;NEVER EVER WOULD I BELIEVE I'M WRITING DOWN, FOR Y/T/ WORLD TO VIEW( IF ANY EVEN CARE-THAT'S ALL RIGHT W/ME, TOO). AS MY B..F.F. 4EVER OLDER BROTHER(BLOOD LINE BRO), ENDURES ANOTHER "SIDE EFFECT" OF HIS PRIOR SINGLE "LUNG TRANSPLANT"(HAVING BEATEN THE ODDS AT EVEN QUALIFYING, THEN ACTUALLY RECEIVING THE TRANSPLANT( AT HIS AGE/STAGE IN LIFE ALMOST 10 YEARS AGO(MAY 10TH), UNDERGOING CHEMO ,( THIS GIFT KEEPS ON GIVING),(CANCER, CAUSED BY "MEDICINE COMBO(APPROXIMATELY 20 PER DAY, + ADDITION OF DIABETES, & OTHER SYMPTOMS), I REMINISCE OUR CHILDHOOD/YOUNG ADULTHOOD: HIS CONSTANT SUPPORT(B4 THAT ASSININE SOCIAL/NCIS INSPIRED EXPRESSION SURFACED-" I'VE GOT YOUR BACK"(DO NOT TRUST ALL WHO SPOUT THAT), TECHNICAL(MATH & SCIENCE & ENGINEERING(BRIEFLY-REFUSED TO FOLLOW IN"DAD'S & HIS ENGINEER FOOTSTEPS)( ANOTHER STORY IN"MY BOOK"), "HE WILL ALWAYS REMAIN MY "HERO" FOR MY LIFE. AS MORE TRIALS R HEAPED UPON THIS UNDESERVING OF THIS BROTHER, I TOO AM CLOSING IN ON THE FINAL CHAPTER; DO NOT WANT TO BE THE SO CALLED " LAST MOHEGAN" OF OUT TRIBE(CLAN). MY WORLD W/OUT HIM WOULD BE INSUFFERABLE(THE SOUND OF HIS LAUGHTER AT SOME OF MY OUTLANDISH PROJECTS, QUESTIONS ABOUT WHERE TO TAKE MY "SCI-FI " PLOT, ETC, & MOST OF ALL,HIS HANDLING, CARING DAYS INVOLVING AS EACH OF OUR PARENTS SUCCUMBED TO " CANCER, 7 YEARS APART. HE " TOOK OUT A 2ND MORTGAGE" ON DAD'S LONG AGO FULLY PAID OFF HOME HELPING WITH MOM'S ASTRONOMICAL MEDICAL/HOME CARE EXPENSES(SADLY, HOSPICE REFUSED TO TAKE MOM,SUFFERING TERRIBLY, SO THEY TOLD DAD, DUE TO HER FRAGILITY(A RECENT FALL/HIP FRACTURE). DAD, & BROTHER( I CAME FOR 1-2 WEEKS EACH VISIT(NEVER TO BE FORGOTTEN-LIVED WITH DAD AT HIS FINAL " CUSTER'S LAST STAND" AT THE HOSPITAL-ACTUALLY BEGGING NURSES TO ALLEVIATE WORSENING PAIN, CHANGE HIS ,YES, SOILED BED SHEET-NOTE;A MALE NURSES "TOLD ME" ALL THE CANCER/PAIN DOCTORS THERE(HOSPITAL & HIS OWN PERSONAL DOCTORS, HAD "WRITTEN OFF DAD", & WERE NO LONGER VISITING/TREATING HIM. "LEAVING DAD TO SUFFER EACH MOMENT(THOSE SOUNDS HE MADE R INGRAINED IN MY BRAIN, AS R "MOM'S OVER THE 6 MONTH PERIOD, .DAD PASSED MIDDLE OF NITE IN HOSPITAL, CALLED BROTHER ,WAS O/O/STATE THAT WEEKEND?> HE MANAGED TO GIVE ME NEEDED CONTACTS, NUMBERS OF FAMILY CIRCLE MEMBERS TO START PROCESS OF FUNERAL HOME/CEMMETARY OPENING OF FAMILY PLOT. HE WAS LIKE MY VERSION OF PAUL NEWMAN(NOT THE POOL OR BOOZE OR WOMEN), ADVISING, CALMING, DIRECTING ME,WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO GO INTO TOTAL PANIC STATE, ALL ALONE IN THE HOUSE OF MY CHILDHOOD, NO VOICES, SOUNDS OF FEET ON WOOD FLOORS,CAR PULLINTO THE GARAGE,OR DAD LETTING GO W/ONE OF HIS TREMENDOUS SNEEZES IN THE A.M B4 SHAVING/GOING TO "GRUMMAN OFFICE" OR "ST LUKES/ROOSEVELT HOSPITAL(MANHATTAN-HIS POST RETIREMENT EMPLOYER). P.S MY EMPLOYER DURING MOM'STIME WAS "CHASE BANK"(MY DIRECT BOSS/MANAGER, CONTINUED TO URGE/TRY TO INTIMIDATE ME WHEN UPDATING WITH REGULAR PHONE CALLS TO HER,YES ( I MUST RETURN TO WORK O/O/STATE RIGHT AWAY OR.....),HER(WON'T PUT NAME(COMMON SURNAME_MANAGED TO GET HER FIRED AT SOME POINT(BUT I MISSED THE SHOW THAT DAY, OH WELL.)